- 9 months ago #75
I'm new to this lifestyle. I say that but I'm mostly new to having a set word to describe my personality or way of thinking. I didn't know I was a caregiver I didn't know this was a thing but as I was reading I literally had a checklist on everything possible. I just got out of a two year relationship with someone who I wasn't enough for and it broke me in every possible way. She always told me she didn't care as much as I did and so forth but I was okay with that as long as she was okay and happy and got everything she wanted to make her life perfect. As I'm going through this she also said I wasnt a Dom enough for her. And I tried but I just can't be dominant I care to much and it makes me feel bad or weird I tried trust me for her. My thing is I have a huge amount of questions that I know can't all be answered at one time. But one question that comes to mind is do I have to have a regressed partner like I don't mind the cute and cuddly but I don't think I could work with someone who is age regressed. Does that mean I'm stuck in life I dont mind things like stuffys or cute things I love Disney movies but I don't want to be a father like figure I guess you can say. To me I feel like I want to nurture them help them make grown up decisions. Help them with life make sure that there needs are met feed them. Make sure there every day life is not a bad one and that they can come to me with everything and I'll answer it to the best of my capabilities. I want to be needed and wanted and to know matter. Another question is besides the age regression can I have a relationship with another caregiver or is that not something that usually happens. Do most littles have age regression. I also want to know sorry if this sounds like to much or not but why did my break up hurt me more than anything in the world. How did I love her so much and is there a way to not overly love someone as a caregiver. I don't really know what to say or word that correctly but I've been in multiple relationships and never have I felt the way this one ripped me apart before. And I think it's more of the fact of not being appreciated I don't know. Don't know if this is okay to vent about either just need some help.